This woman came into my work today. She had been in before, and it turns out it wasn't just a "bad day" because for the second time today I was treated like I was worthless.
Then my mind began to wander about worth and it's relativity to all of my relationships. I can tell you why every person in my life is valuable to me. It's okay to be selfish when establishing relationships without feeling guilty. It took me a long time to accept this, given my Catholic upbringing, but it is true. As long as you make sacrifices among your needs from others, you're fine. Give what you get.
Well lately I've been trying to establish self-respect and I think I really jumped the gun. Though I could tell you why each friend is a friend, each lover was a lover, and each acquaintance remains an acquaintance... I couldn't necessarily tell you why he or she is with me. So before I build self-respect, I have to begin with self-worth. I need life capital.
Where to start? More to come.
